I am pretty proud of my upkeep here on my blog lately. I just wanted to post what's been going on and post some pictures of the kiddos.
I went to my appointment last Thursday and all went well. Although, when I showed up my Doctor had just left for a delivery and my nurse was gone. I found out later that my nurse had unexpectedly lost her grown son from Kidney failure a couple weeks ago. So sad. Hard year for my office. The nurser that was covering for my nurse and doctor did my check-up. She first asked my boys if they were getting a brother or a sister. When they replied, "brother," she said, "well, that isn't really fair to mom is it!" Oh, the comments keep coming. I really wished that my doctor or nurse had been there. They know my situation. Also, I didn't really think that comment would have been appropriate even IF she knew my situation. We also didn't get the stress test done and I had to tell her I needed the Rhogam shot. The good news is I was measuring 33 1/2 weeks and I was only 32! I was thrilled about that. Didn't check his position although I am sure he is still chilling diagonally inside. Butt in my right side ribs, head down on the bottom left. I sure hope he gets into position soon and drops down!
A couple days later while at the grocery store, the cashier asked if this was my first. I told her my fourth. Sometimes I just say 3 but I feel awful. This way, I feel I am not disregarding our baby girl. She asked what we had and I told her we had two boys, lost a baby girl, and were pregnant with a boy. I left it at that. People don't need details or a sob story. Her comment did take me back. She said, "Oh, well, I have two girls and two boys." She then said, "my boys are monsters." I was thinking, "why thank you Mrs." It may not be the ideal but I just told you we lost a girl. Guess it doesn't matter. She then told me that they were also 15 months apart and the oldest boy was autistic. I told her, "oh, that would be hard." I tried to be sensitive. I could have said something really hurtful to her, but I didn't. Glad I have some life experience.
The good thing is that because I have reached a level of peace and acceptance with having this little boy, the comments can be taken with a grain of salt. They still sting a bit but I am actually happy and excited to welcome Dallin into our family. This is my life, I cannot change the past.
I did have a dream a couple nights ago that I had the baby girl I have been dreaming/picturing in my head for some time. She had black hair just like me when I was born and resembled me as a baby. I remember her nuzzling right into my neck and I couldn't get enough of her or let go. Although someone had told me she was a girl, I was to afraid to check it out for myself in fear it would change. Pregnancy dreams are so CRAZY for me. This one was actually quite pleasant.
Anyways, I am sure pictures are really what people come here for so here are some of our latest...
By we, I typically mean Brian and the boys. Can I just tell you how grateful I am to have Brian. He is such a hard worker and one of the things he works hard at is getting the boys out of the house, away from screen time, and being active. They need that so bad right now with me being "with child!"
Such a little stud. I love his "tough guy" reputation he has to uphold. Well, most the time I love it :)
On a side note. Dale n' Melon are still going strong. Stronger than ever before. He knows they are his "imaginary friends" but they seem so REAL when he is shouting at them and disciplining them. The great thing for Teagan is that he lives vicariously through them. They do absolutely everything Teagan has been told NOT to do in his entire toddler lifetime. They follow Satan and love to say "stupid mom" and "idiot."It's completely awesome for us.
Let the good times roll here at the Lund Household!